07.13.05 :: 10:21 am
"What does that mean?"
So, like, basically I'm racing against cancer and my biological clock.
Ryan suggested we freeze some of my eggs, just to have, in case I can't carry a baby when we're ready.
But the thought of asking a stranger to incubate my eggs with ryan's sperm in her ute makes me want to die a million stabby deaths.
I don't know anymore. The only thing that is certain is that if I have to make a baby soon, having it in New York in our current financial state is Re.Tar.Ded.
So, options...options. Maybe Cali? Maybe Greece?
I don't know. the recurring theme.
And, also, how sad would it be if I had a baby and then died of cancer? That's so selfish of me.
I'm INSANE for thinking I can do this.
I need a double espresso.