07.13.05 :: 10:21 am
"What does that mean?" Oh. So, like, basically I'm racing against cancer and my biological clock. Ryan suggested we freeze some of my eggs, just to have, in case I can't carry a baby when we're ready. But the thought of asking a stranger to incubate my eggs with ryan's sperm in her ute makes me want to die a million stabby deaths. I don't know anymore. The only thing that is certain is that if I have to make a baby soon, having it in New York in our current financial state is Re.Tar.Ded. So, options...options. Maybe Cali? Maybe Greece? I don't know. the recurring theme. And, also, how sad would it be if I had a baby and then died of cancer? That's so selfish of me. I'm INSANE for thinking I can do this. I need a double espresso. |