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10.14.03 :: 6:26 pm
I think about Mark constantly, but can't make up my mind whether or not I actually miss him, or I'm starting to forget about him because he's been gone for so long. I think about my ex and feel the same way. There is no one I am interested in. I have become blank, I guess. Emotionally. So I got my nails done and bought my mother a needlessly expensive arrangement of blood-red flowers and fruit for her birthday. Something is so, so weird about the state of affairs right now. And I can't put my finger on it. Like things are in flux, but kind of hovering... Like things have been freeze-framed in mid-jump. Something is so ready to happen you can feel it lift the hairs on your neck. Come already. |