03.19.04 :: 12:31 pm

He's on our weekend trip currently without me.

And over the static of a terrible connection, the words no one with a heart can stand to hear: "It just doesn't feel right."

How is it that you can enjoy yourself with someone and care about them, but at the end of the day "it just doesn't feel right" ?

And over and over "I'm so sorry" like I can't even begin to comprehend what has happened here.

I don't know what he will think about in the next three days. He said he'd like to see me when he returns. Maybe he'll have rehearsed the words to say when he wipes out the last molecule of hope I have.

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