01.23.05 :: 3:00 pm
I have not forgiven myself 100% for the way I treated Adam in the last few months of our relationship. I still blame myself for a lot of what went wrong - even though we both had a hand in it - and therefore I keep revisiting that "apartment," which is SO a metaphor for my guilty feelings and the fear that I will wreck my current relationship. I explained this to Ryan, and he looked at me and said without hesitation, "Don't worry. You never have to go back to that house again." And he's so right. |